I'm tricking myself into thinking I'm having fun

(Saturday, 19th April 2025) - today's been fun for the most part.

I've been going to the gym for the past 3 days, with today being an exception or a rest day. I've decided to make it a habit, because of various reasons - My mum pushing me to do it, me realizing how awful my physique actually is and to become a better version of myself. It's great so far. My whole body is aching, but I feel exhilarated. I hope to continue it. My main motivation for going to gym - my roommate is on a trip to his hometown. This could hamper my will to continue. I will try my best to get fit.

Today was fun 'cause I've played Badminton after a very long time. Almost 7 years. Yeah, it's surreal. I love the game. The guys I've played with are awesome. There's one who plays very good, he goes to The Cult almost everyday of the week. People who play at The Cult are very good at the game, he says. I hope I can learn a couple of things from him.

I've also received an invitation from a friend of mine for her marriage. It's in May. I need to make plans to attend the marriage at any cost. I also need to talk to a few people, with whom I could attend it together. It's in Cuddalore, Tamil Nadu. I've looked at Google Maps. There aren't many hotels, but the place is very close to the ocean. It has a couple of beaches, and View Points. I'd love to travel along the coast line. I was planning on renting a bike for myself and going on a ride. I still need to plan the details.

The not so fun part. I've been feeling horrible. A friend shared a problem with me and I could not provide any kind of help. I've felt useless. I hope the information I could gather was helpful. I hope I provided enough comfort. I do not want to feel like this.

I do not want this place to be filled with my mess ups. So I will skip some other feelings I've felt today. I only hope the people who caused me to feel such way realize it.

PS: Somebody is reading my blogs. It's probably me. If there is somebody else who reads this, please leave a comment - I don't want to overthink.

C ya another time!